All I Live ForBite my neck andDrain the love from my veinsKiss me softlyF#ck me roughlyUse me whichever way you'd likeCaress meGrab meGentlyRoughlyEtch your memory into my skinWith those nails of yoursGrip the sheets above my headWith the painful pleasureAroused between the sheetsMake my voice hitchWhen we feel the "big connection"Collapse above me andWhisper those useless words of false promises and affectionAgainst my weak, naked bodyBecause those wordsAre all I seem to live for
LurkingThe darkness lurking behind my eyesLeaks into the pencil I am now using to writeThe darkness spills pretty words across this blank sheetBut I reflect upon a timeWhen those same pretty wordsWere carved into flesh insead
MessageI must have typed this message a dozen timesBut for some reason it will not sendPride (or something else?) keeps me from sending itI will not ask for helpI can be alone, like I usually am...You do not need my problemsThat is why even when my vision is blurryFrom tears I refuse to cryI hide pathetic selfFrom your kind eyes
Online RomanceI smile at the silly wordsthat spill across my screenThe very words that make me snort with laughterThe words right beneath your nameThe warmth of affection fillsthe little crevices of my heartSo that that lonely organIs not so brokenEyes close at the soft love in your wordsSo that I can imagine how your arms would feelSo that perhaps I can imagine youRight hereBeside meBut even with the warmth of your wordsAnd the heat of our laughterWhen I touch the desktop screenOn the picture of your faceIt is very. very. cold
Dance with DeathI danced with Deathon a stage of wilted flowers andthe bones of my fallen enemies.With grey skies anda black-cloaked figureextending a lifeless hand.Such a tempting hand,promising emptiness anda free pass from theworld where everythinghas a double meaning,and nobody is what they seem.Such a deathless solution,taking life but grantingfreedom from this land.And there I stood with Death,watching grey cloudshand on a backdrop of silver,and watched the colorlessblossoms unfold from a colorless ground.This world, the one withoutpainful color andpainless lies, emptyof the deceit.Such a tempting, outstretched hand,such promi
You Are NOT AloneYou are NOT aloneTo all my +watchers who have some form of depression:You are not alone. This will end.I’ve had depression for 5 years, from the time I was 12 in middle school to now, when I’m 17 and nearly in college. I’ve attempted suicide twice. I’d even self-harmed for two years.I’ve gone through two abusive relationships; many ended friendships, including the one of my so called “Best Friend” of 5 years; I’ve lost someone I loved dearly, a centerpiece to my family; I’ve failed an entire semester due to my depression; I’ve tried killing myself over the fact I liked girls;
In This MomentIn this momentIf I only had one wishI would wish for nothing elseThan to be by your sideAnd in this momentI desperately pray thatI never fall in love with you
I ApologizeI see the pain you go throughStruggles I cannot seeFor I am not by your sideI am here, thousands of miles away from youThe empty space in your heart and by your sideCannot be filled with simple text on a screen Or even my voiceI'm sorry I cannot save you from that painMore than anything, I wish I could rescue youBut as I lay in bed cryingI feel as if I failed again
My Roses are BlackI stepped into a fantasy-like world. An upside down purple sky with black clouds. Blue grass waving to a bright red sun. Where am I...?You sat in the middle of this messed up world.Your smile bright and wide. Laughing at a joke no one could hear. Your dull eyes focused in on empty air above a field of wax flowers.You turned to me and reach out a hand. As I rush to grab it, the ground collapses, our sun burns out. The blue grass dies and your flowers melt. Everything is vanishing-- along with you.As you fade into the wind the only sound is my voice screaming your name. And your sweet, innocent laughter."My roses are black, my violets a
They TalkThey say scars can talkIf only you would listenSo listen, my dearTo the scar on my chestThe ones on my handAnd the one crisscrossing my knucklesDo you know what they say?.........My cat is an asshole.