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I don't think my story is so unique
In fact, I think it's downright common

I met her in 2nd grade
She was good friends with my friend
We said hello
And soon after were inseparable

Fast forward to 8th grade
I just got back from a mental hospital
After a suicide attempt
60 doses of prescription meds
Along with a couple dozen painkillers

I come back
And one day at lunch,
I confess
I confess to liking her
More than friends
More than best friends
More like lovers
For 2 years

She stares at me and says simply
"It will never happen. You know that, right?"
Another day comes
She wants to talk
She explains how it is hard for her
To see me like this
Then she says, as tears roll down her face
That we can't be friends anymore
She turns her back to me
Along with most of my friends

Skip forward another year
My then-boyfriend speaks to her for me
She replies to him
How she feels bad for what she did to me
But she wanted me to know it was for the best
It was hard to do, but she did it anyways

Present Day
I don't remember her exact hair color
I don't remember how tall she was, or how skinny
I don't remember what her skin tone was
I don't even remember her voice

The only thing I do remember
Is that moment I confessed my feelings to her
Cause in that moment, I pushed past my fear
To tell her how I really felt, even though I myself was against it
I was honest with myself
The first time in a long, long time
A little confession of mine. It's been a long butt time since I even thought about her, to be honest. But a deviation inspired me to write my own little story.

Please, don't force your opinions on me. Be courteous.
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choco-latte-squirrel Nov 9, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
This sounds very amazing, I know how it feels to be rejected and hurt by someone you truly care about because "you two will never happened," but later on, it gets better and you'll meet someone who will be there for you and care and love you. :hug: :heart:

:+fav: :+favlove:
sleepy-kisses Nov 11, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for the encouragement :) For now, I'm not really looking for love, I wanna get myself together first ♥ Thanks for your comment!
choco-latte-squirrel Nov 11, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
You are welcome. Same here myself. (I had my first boyfriend and that turned out horrible. :XD:), but on topic, I am myself a bisexual. At first, I came out in eighth grade, but somewhere around 2011-2012 and once I started High School, I wasn't really thinking about my sexuality and I just stated that I was bi-curious. However, now that I'm single and once again thought of it again, and yeah, I'm again a bisexual. I would love to see myself dating both genders. No one should be judged on whatever gender they see in love with. Men and Women are both attractive in one way and another. :)

Hopefully that helps too. ^^
sleepy-kisses Nov 11, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Haha I once said "If you're bi, you're twice as likely to find love!" x) I wish you the best :)
choco-latte-squirrel Nov 11, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
XD Nice quote! Will use in future. x)
Same to you. :)
Lucyndaria Nov 7, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
That's really beautiful, and so sad. *hug*
I am so glad that I managed to stay friends with my friend after I confessed my love to her (and she didn't return it, of course). Even if it's still sometimes difficult to be close to her while knowing that there'll be nothing...
sleepy-kisses Nov 11, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
*hugs back* Thanks for the support :) I hope things will look up for you, I'm sure you'll find someone who loves you back ♥ Just keep up your hope!
very brave of you to do so most at that age would never go behind the fear of "what if she never talks to me again" but you did so =} :hug:
sleepy-kisses Nov 6, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Heh, I didn't think she wouldn't ever speak to me again xD But I got over it. In the end, it may have been for the best :) I'm stronger now and I'm more happy with myself ♥
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